From 273.9 to 282.6

Well it has been four years since I wrote 273.9. Since then I haven’t had any true sustainable success. Because there hasn’t been any positive net gains over that span of time, I believe it speaks to a deeper psychological issue within myself. What I have found in me is a character flaw and no one to blame. I have lived in my potential and not beyond it. I have lived in a space of whenever I am ready I can lose the weight because I’ve done it before. This falsehood that I have adopted has not served me well. I have believed I was moving until Facebook shared a blog post from a previous memory that I wrote. It exposed the hypocrisy, inconsistency and half-heartedness of my attempts from 4 years ago to today. The catch of the lies I told was on full display for anyone to see. However, the one who needed to see it, the one wh hated seeing it was me. I saw my potential stagnant and unfulfilled. I need to change. I will change because that lie I told myself shook me at my core.

Worse decision EVER! 😩

So I decided to take a day off from the smoothies yesterday because it was Saturday and I had so much to do. Well BIG MISTAKE! My stomach hurt sooooooo bad all night!  I was running back and forth to the restroom. 😞 I guess drinking nothing but smoothies for  5 days and then eating regular food is not a good mix. Taking it easy today so my stomach can recoup. Full cleanse tomorrow. Curling back up in my ball for now ✌️

279.0

After a week back from purgatory I have lost 4.8 lbs. How’d I do it? With Slim Fast shakes twice a day and one reasonable meal with water. Also I had no sodas, no Little Debbie cakes and most importantly no complicated diet schemes.

Natrodisiac
#lasttime

Progress so far 😊

After 4 days, I’m down 5.6 lbs! The cleanse has been challenging but it has changed my thought process about food. I will share my thoughts later.

Back to work ✌️

I Crashed. I Burned.

My headache was a like a rolling jack hammer across the sockets of my eyes. I found myself descending from the heights of starting high on desire and motivation to be  losing altitude at an unbelievable rate because I needed, my mind needed, food. It needed the familiar taste and weight of what food on my stomach felt like and it wouldn’t stop! I relented. My mind retaliated because of my will to stay the course and a headache worthy of being on a Richter scale ensued. I became nausea and eventually called earl. [shaking my head] The headache never ended until I made it to the safety net of my bed, but not before I stopped at a pizza joint for a little peace of mind. Today I am going to continue my diet but with more food, HEALTHY FOOD choices, as I start a new day. The carnage of the wreckage is a reminder that losing weight is not just a matter of pressing a button. It’s discipline, planning, effort, execution and patience.

Natrodisiac

Day 3 😃

Last night was a beast! 👹 I had the worse headache! I ended up going to sleep at 8 and didn’t wake up until after midnight. But today—

Has been much better. I actually did my hair 😉. Lol My energy level is at 7. I’m a little hungry but overall today has been good. I’m working out today. I didn’t yesterday but definitely will get it in.

Weigh in for first 5 days is Friday. Can’t wait to share the results with you. Thanks again for the push. You guys are awesome! 👍

Smoothie Cleanse Day 2

I would be lying if I said today wasn’t a tad tough.  Addiction to food is real! I’m not as hungry as my mind is telling I am.  At the end of the day, I’m pushing forward! I will win this! Day 2 over half way over! I can do this! 

Thanks to those that have liked my post. It’s really encouraging. ❤️

Day 1 Smoothie Cleanse

Weight: 212.2

Breakfast:

Yogi Detox Tea/ Day 1 Smoothie

1st Snack: Boiled Eggs

2nd Snack: Hand full of unsalted nuts

Lunch: Smoothie

I will have another snack plus the last 20 ounces of my smoothie for dinner. 

Workout: Zumba (1 hour) 

I plan to win this! 👊

283.8 lbs

…while in pugatory I gained roughly 10lbs. It’s day one of Operation: Reboot.

Natrodisiac

…Back From Pugatory

Being stuck between two worlds is hard. Especially when they are the polar opposites of one another. One world is processed and convenient, fast food-ish and the other requires effort, planning and a grocery list. I have gained at 10 more dreaded pounds while in purgatory’s clutches. This has to end, now. Tomorrow’s weigh will be the unnumbered and countless  start to a new weight loss journey but a restart nonetheless. Here we go! To losing 50! To a new beginning. Details about my reboot coming soon.

Natrodisiac